My Husband, My Hero

Well damnit.

It's 10:27pm the night before one of the biggest days that changed my life forever, and I'm bawling my eyes out.

Not because I'm sad.

Because I'm legit-unbelievably-insanely-blessed.

If you know me, you know every year I post on this day: September 3rd. It's an anniversary to me and I like to remember it. EVERY.SINGLE.YEAR. It's the day that I get to remember how life almost robbed me of my fiance and future father-in-law.

I know there were countless amounts of hard times; with that, for me, I can't even begin to tell you a single one. I think about the smiles and pride that we felt with every accomplishment - small and big. The laughter that came out of uncomfortable situations; times that we would have been mortified about "pre-accident". I like to look back and see how much God has blessed us with since then. Every year I shed tears of happiness, tears of gratitude. Every year I look at my little miracles and I squeeze them a little tighter. Every year I remember back to the sound of compassionate, concerned strangers and the love from family and friends. Every year I feel exactly what I felt 11 years ago, but each year that passes, it intensives. I'm overwhelmed (for lack of a more powerful word), with just how amazing the grace of God can be. We are so fortunate to have each other, to have our family, our friends, our community. I am so fortunate to still have Nick and Allen.

Why am I so fortunate? Besides the obvious of course. Things could have been much, much different. Nick and I were destined to be together and God had a plan for us, it just included a bump.

"If you want the rainbow, you have to deal with the rain"

John Green

Nick is my angel, my best friend. I pray that my children get to spend their life with someone who shares and loves as hard as we do. Do you have a light in your life? I know with certainty that I do, and my babies call him daddy.

Nick,

You are my world.

My shining light.

You make me feel beautiful every day and love our kids and I with every ounce in your being. Your positive energy radiates from you, it's inspiring to SO many, including yours truly. I couldn't be more proud of our life we have built, a life that we both talked about at 18 years old and now we're living it. I'm listening to you snore in the other room as I write this, today is only one of the days that I will let you sleep without jabbing your ribs; mainly because I remember thanking God for hearing those same snores on what seems like just yesterday. [I'm also thankful for ear-plugs as well]

Thank you for loving me. always.

Thank you for fighting.

Thank you for being you.

**I do not own the rights to the music, blah blah blah**