Pregnancy + Fears

Thanks COVID-19 for robbing me of my final pregnancy! I’m kinda joking, kinda serious. While it’s saving the family money, (sorry Target!) – I miss strolling the aisles smelling each candle, looking at the storage containers, picking out my next new vacuum, smelling the shampoos and grazing the kids clothes and shoes. You guys, I have not been in any public place in 42 days, it seems crazy! I feel like I’m in some sort of twilight zone.

This pregnancy has been a lot different than the other two. I have been a rollercoaster of emotion, experiencing anxiety like no other, panic attacks like my heart it about to pop out of my chest, countless sleepless nights worrying about the future, not able to be 100% present with my kids, and just not being able to focus on the joys that pregnancy should bring. Don’t get me wrong, I am super grateful to be blessed with a third pregnancy, but it’s just been tough time lately.

I worry come July, what the rules/procedures will be in the hospital, I worry that maybe my husband won’t be in the room with me when the baby is born, I worry my family and friends won’t be able to meet the new baby, I worry that (my new fear) of germs, viruses etc. will take over me being able to enjoy a newborn being in public, I worry that every little cough, runny nose, fever will have a bad outcome. I worry that I won’t want people to come over (which is not like me) because of the germs they may bring in.

The list goes on and on.

But the past two weeks, since turning off the news and my hubby telling me about all of the good that is coming of this, has been very helpful. While I am busy freaking out, he’s busy remaining calm. PHEW! I’ve been able to focus more on my kids, enjoying the baby kicks, eating ice cream late at night, family time 4-wheeling, going for walks, baking, napping, coloring, playing with playdough, yardwork, playing the sandbox, eating freezies for breakfast, playing board games, and just enjoying living in the simpler times.

As hard as the times are right now, I know that I am no alone and that we are all facing some sort of worry or isolation together. Better days are to come and I can’t wait to hug the heck out of everyone!

For all of the fellow mamas expecting soon, my heart is with you! You got this!

Stay healthy

xoxo

Tressa